Creating Good Grief

It's Saturday morning two weeks after my mother's "memorial" service, which is just a nice way to say Funeral when you don't want to acknowledge someone is dead, which we did NOT! I wake up, and almost imediately I start crying. Not the beautiful tears pretty girls cry when they pretend their heart is broken for the movie. No, this is a full on scary, can't breath, covers over my face, curled in a ball cry. My husband pulls the covers off my face and imediately puts them back and say, "oh my god! What happened?"

I simply screamed, "She's GONE!"

Grief is something I've had very little experience with. Nine months before my mom died, my husband and I lost our pregnancy but that was nothing compared to this new feeling of broken-heartedness. Loosing a future was one thing, but my husband and I are masters in creating new futures at any given moment.

So this... Loosing my mom is not something I could even begin to create. So I shared.

I still remember that day, after I picked myself up off the bed, I went to work out at my local favorite, Fuse45. I didn't cry the whole time, but I did have a very angry workout. Then I got in my car to drive back up north for the first time and I cried.

Now I don't mean cried like a little while your favorite sad song is playing on the radio, cause I still do that every time "Someone you Loved" by lewis Capaldi comes on. I mean pulling off the highway because it's unsafe to drive crying.

The only thing I could think to do is call people, ANYONE and just start talking. So that's what I did. I started talking about my mom and sharing every moment I got a chance and I didn't even care if it annoyed people. You see, as long as I was sharing she could live through my words.

Then I thought, actually my business partner has this idea, what if we completely alter the way grieving occurs for people? What if we could change the course of the grieving process to people sharing uncontrollably about the people they love and miss. It would almost be like, we altered the term funeral to memorial service... wait, we already did that.

So I started sharing that idea and we now have a YouTube channel called "Good Grief". This is a platform for people to share about the people they love. I wasn't prepared for ALL of this... but her we go!